Its August already...

So I am still on my path to a healthier & better life. I struggle almost every day. It seems like food consumes everyone. Or maybe because I have a lot of difficulties with food I just see that. I don't know.
Today I had a party with most of my friends. We could all gain from losing weight and becoming more healthy. Most of us have struggled with weight in our adult lives. The last couple of years since being on WW most of the group has gotten better with dishes brought to potlucks or just the amount of food we have at a party in general. Although today its seemed like we had more than enough.
The longer and longer I take to get it, that FOOD shouldn't control my life, I get somewhat stronger. Or maybe its just an illusion. I know right now thought I can't sit in front of food for any long period of time. Even after I feel that I've satisfied my hunger, if I sit in front of chips, bread or any other reachable food I seem to just grab it. There is no purpose for this eating, but it still happens. Why is that? Why do I feel this need or desire to still eat after I already had my share? I don't get it.
Today though I stopped myself, I came to the realization that right now I am not strong enough to over come this. At least for now I can not sit with food in front of me because I will just mindlessly eat because others are doing the same thing.

I know I am rambling and by this time not making much sense but its something I had to write about. I feel like getting my "issues" with food out here helps. Well see :)

Nyla Irene Poliak

Born December 3, 2009

5 lbs 10 oz. 18 inches

Sitting On Top of the World with Your Legs Hangin Free

Happy Birthday Avery!!!

Avery & Seth went to Disney Land for Avery's birthday this year. Every kid's dream come true.

And of course they came back with a huge bag of candy.

...and couldn't leave there without first making a sand castle.



Love those boys!

Oh!

Grateful & Happy Birthday

To Molli & Her Family,

I am grateful for having my best friend, my lover, my wife Molli, in my life. I love her so. Molli is amazing. What a wonderful gift I have received from her. Molli’s love has made the most important impact on my life. Who has found a side of me I did not know was there. Molli does not try to change me, what she may think I should become but instead, nurtures what I have that made her fall in love with me in the first place and above all, Molli is honest. I love you Molli. I am grateful for Molli’s Parents, you did well raising such a beautiful person inside and out. I can’t thank you enough. I am grateful for heavenly father giving me this angel! Happy Birthday today Molli!

33 has came & gone...

So on Friday my friends & I got together and had a little cheese party. Hahah I say little but actually there were 18 cheeses for tasting. 2 of them however where in a fondue. I had brought the bread, crackers, apples, pears & grapes all to eat with the cheese. There were 7 of us in all who ate the cheese but 9 of us in total present. Wendy she hates cheese...yea she is crazy or deranged haven't figured it out. Marcella well she wasn't feeling quite well enough to eat the cheese her stomach has been bothering her.

So in theory my friends were to bring 1-2 cheese a piece. But instead 2 of the friends brought the most! It was like they got really into this. I loved it though, had a blast.


On Saturday I went on a nice hike...killer hike to work off the cheese from the night before. It was a great goal of mine and I hadn't done that much of the whole park before. It was WONDERFUL!

OMG its been a month & I haven't posted anything...

Well 1st of all Steve's party went well...
He was surprised. Stephanie came for a visit and she took us out to dinner at this fabulous restaurant called Alexanders.

Dinner was wonderful. Although it didn't help in my weight loss endeavors. I am still at the 88-90 pounds gone. Which I am playing back & forth with over the last month.
I need to just quit fooling around and getting moving on down the scale again.

Jamaica trip is fast approaching. I am happy with all I've accomplished but I can do better then this yo-yo-ing.

I bought Steve a tandem bike for his birthday, well its kind of for both of us.

We haven't rode it seriously yet. Although him & his Dad put it together and we had a chance to test it out.